I originally wrote this post for my personal blog. As it came together, and I read the finished product I realized that maybe I am not alone. Maybe there are other autism parents and caregivers out there that can relate. So with it being autism awareness month also, I decided to share it here also.
Being A Special Needs Parent
I realized this evening what a pathetic life I lead as a parent of 2 children with special needs. I love my kids with all my heart, would do anything for them including sacrificing to make sure there needs are met. I have even gone as far as giving up my own life. No friends, no social life, no me time.
For all these years I never thought twice about it. Just assumed the role of provider and caregiver down this path that was handed to me. I felt blessed to have been given another chance at parenthood, since my first several chances never worked out.
Now I find our days more difficult as my children get older, and I get older. I also find myself looking at the world thru a different lens. What I see is a world moving along, going places, doing things, “Living”, while we are stuck in this ____? I don’t even know what to call it?
Maybe if I can define it, figure out what to call it, then maybe I can fix it? Something to think about.
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